That sucks yes. But you're NOT destroyed, and you won't be.
Reminds me of something I posted in my thread earlier today: "Perhaps the simple point is LBS should not let what robbed their WAS of the ability to love them, also rob their own self-love, or their capacity to be loved."
It's still your choice, your life. Be strong.
Me 42 W 39 Married: 11 Jan 1998, T: Since 1992 First Bomb: Sep 2007 Confirmed A/OM: 4 Nov 2007 Kids: D10, S5 Reconciled and together again after (alot of) time and heartbreak. 3rd kid, S, born 2 Jan 2010.