I'm finding new-W not so attractive as I once did. So, I'm wondering if it's her I was so in love w/ or the doormat version of her she used to be. Or it could be that in distancing herself from me, the old her, she's actively choosing to be a new version of herself that I wouldn't want anymore.
I know, confusing. Was it all just a lie I told myself? That I loved her because she took care of me and told me how amazing I was? Am I incapable of loving someone who isn't kissing my butt?
That's all a little disconcerting.
~Mark
Me: 38 W: 34 Together: 9yrs 1st M: may '03 1st D: april '08 1st bomb: june '08 remarried: oct '08 2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)
