Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

He came over and did not bring his work bag again (it has the old D paperwork in it)! It has been 4 weeks since he brought up D talk. He made lots of reference to "we" "our" but who knows what that means. For ex: "we have some rice" "our garage gets cold" "I'll be home, er, here, around 5." He even made inside jokes.

I was cheerful, relaxed, but prepared if he were to bring up the D. I actually got my inspiration from reading another thread where the woman's H was with OW and told her the reason why he liked being with OW is that he felt no pressure. They talked about light topics, watched TV and laughed, and she never brought up his marriage. In fact, the OW even turned down a dinner date, telling H he should enjoy dinner with his wife after their C session! So I decided to be the happy, relaxed one.

Do you know that usually I hear WH's phone buzz at least twice from what I am assuming to be a text from OW? I am soooo much better at not texting him when he is with her!

Last time we spent time together I was anticipating the D talk and filled the silence with nervous chatter about the baby.So this time I just let it be quiet if that was the case.

I worked out for almost an hour, took a long time getting ready, went grocery shopping but then just hung out, checking my email or reading a magazine.Together we played with the baby a little, (mostly he did but I joined in sometimes)marveling at how amazing and funny and cute he is.

Looking back on the last year, major things happened on Holidays.
Halloween (08)--found out I was pregnant.
New Year's--found out about the affair.
St. Patrick's--found out he never ended it
(BTW Thanksgiving and Christmas sucked a$$ last year just b/c he was so distant and not enthused about the pregnancy but I didn't know why)

So wouldn't it be funny if on Thanksgiving he wants to talk about reconciling? A girl can dream, right? HOPE HOPE