Detachment

[brknheart]

Its been 3 1/2 weeks since ive seen my WAW. She came to the house last night thinking I wasnt home. I went outside to see what the dogs were barking at and she was in her car. She was just stopping by to drop some things off. I went back inside and all of the emotions inside of me came out. Its been tough. I want to tell her how much I love her and how much I want her to come back, yet I know cannot do this. The funny thing is she has done some things Im not sure I could forgive, yet I want her back. I keep asking myself do I miss the companionship and having someone to come home to, do I really miss her or that? She txted me that she was sorry she came by and she didnt come in because she wanted to respect my request to not see her. I know that detaching does not mean giving up, but its hard to have hope when it feels like she really doesnt care about me anymore, not even as a friend. Im almost through with the "Uncoupling" book, its amazing how people are so self-centered when it comes to breaking long relationships. Its hard reading about people who feel free and has a sense of euphoria when leaving their spouse.