I just got off the phone with another friend who has been fantastic through all of this.
I am feeling better.
There isn't a third party involved (affair), time is on my side and I have remained very consistent throughout this seperation. I've fought a couple of times, once last weekend and once in counseling, but both times I ended it by saying that I wasn't going to continue to do that. Heated emotions lead to saying things that we don't mean.
My W does seem to be jabbing me, I know that is mind reading, but I still feel like she is pushing ME to file...that isn't going to happen. If this is what she wants, then she needs to do it, not me.
We have a pending issue tomorrow that I was stressing about, but have come to a conclusion on. Our daughter has a concert at school; so of course I wonder "Do I sit next to my W? Do I sit someplace else?" Eitherway I can p!ss her off. Simple solution. Get their early, before her, sit someplace and if SHE wants to sit by me she can, if not, that is okay too.
Thank you for being here today, Gardener, I really appreciate it.
I see my IC on Tuesday and my Pastor later in the week; that is something to look forward to as well.
