((BIM)) wanted to look in on you. Tried reading and catching up. I see you got a couple of 2x4's thrown ur way. =) Trying to justify still loving someone in these sitch's is never easy, sometimes we just can't. Our feelings are what they are. We just cant let them rule us. I know its silly, but do you remember the story "The Little Engine That Could"? I found that in an old box last night and was feeling overwhelmed and read it. Made me feel better. Great childhood memories and message.
