I've just finished reading your thread. I'm struggling (like so many here) with the same thing you are, especially the detachment.
The forum is a great resource for me, even though my focus is awful; I can't even remember which threads I've read. I've started keeping a journal of what I'm reading. It helped me to learn to use the "watched threads" function too.
I've been having a really bad day too. I haven't posted anything in my thread in a couple of days. I noticed that you had posted twice in one hour, and I'm imagining you sitting at your computer waiting for a response from anyone. I wanted to offer what little I have.
After reading for a while, what comes to mind that I'm hanging on to is the need for patience and time. Of course, I want my sitch to be fixed NOW, but I keep praying for more patience.
Hang in there!
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