Hi guys, another bad day for me. My son told me this morning that he dreamt if the 3 of us going to the beach and playing in the water.
I asked my W if I could take our son on the trip to Fiji, and she said she would think about it. I can't see I wouldn't be able to take him.
I heard from someone that they are having a mass fir my father in law tomorrow night. W hasn't told me anything, so I guess she doesn't want me there.
I'm at the house we are trying to build today as I've got the electricians here doing some more work. I can't handle being here knowing that we won't be moving in as a family.
I want to get on with my life, but I'm struggling. My family has been asking me what I would do if she came to her senses later, and I would love to try again. I don't think they are too impressed. They keep saying she'll regret it later and that I deserve better, but I guess they don't want to see me in pain.
I can't get out of my head that she said she has been happier without me. I was always afraid that she would think she was happier as she was seeing a councillor about her own issues and think that she was happier cause I wasn't around.
We had always agreed to try to make things better when we were in our own house, but she doesn't even want to try.
