In shock...

[brownidmom]

I feel like God is my only hope right now. I can feel the depression setting in.

Yes, GOD is hope, but you have to do what you know to do. Be graceful, take the high road, PRAY, take care of yourself and your kids. If you do all these things, you will start to feel stronger and you will get stronger. Decisions are always best when made from a place of strength.

Sorry to wallow...I know you all don't want to hear it. I will get over it eventually. Time to GAL, distance, and love my kids.....all in the name of not wallowing.

I have wallowed, we all have at one time or another. I think it is a natural part of this processing. Losing your marriage requires grieving in order to heal, just like the death of a loved one. Just be sure to set a limit, like the number of days you will allow yourself to wallow. Go dark during that time with everyone, do only for yourself and your kids during this time. Then, once you wake up the day after your limit is up, be thankful for what you have and do whatcha gotta do to move forward!

I will check back periodically. For right now though, I don't see my actions as saving my marriage.

That's ok, while we all came here to save our marriages, we have all learned that we cannot do that unless we first save ourselves. Work on that for now.

Thank you to everyone who tried to help me. I am sorry I was so obstinate and blind. I am still praying that God opens his eyes and mine.

If you keep praying, GOD will open your eyes. I want to share something that a woman said to me a couple of days ago. She counsels women at her church and she told me, "You cannot be pitiful and powerful at the same time." So, PiGA, choose to be powerful.

I'll be praying for you.

bim