It hurts that I made another person, who once cared for me, miserable enough that they left. And it hurts that, despite the changes that I've made and all the work I've done, she still "hates" me and doesn't "ever" want to be with me again.
I can and do relate. It happens. It happened. Don't beat yourself up. Regret is a waste of emotion and energy.
"I learned long ago that I cannot fix the past" Mary Chapin Carpenter
Hang in there. You're a good man. Things will work out for the greater good.
Gardener
"My soul, be satisfied with flowers, With fruit, with weeds even; but gather them In the one garden you may call your own." Cyrano deBergerac