OK. So another down day feeling lonely about myself and situation. I know X is with OM and it doesn't feel all that great. I started on the DB forums to be able to work it out with X bc I felt that was the best thing to do. So many mixed emotions.
By dating others and tuning out the X I feel like I am doing as bad as she does. She doesn't even care what goes on with D when she is with me. Makes me wonder how much she cares when D is with her.
I would just like to be with someone grown enough to know good choices in life. X is so selfsih and thinks about herself first. That is one of the main reasons we are here IMO.
It just makes me sad to be in this situation I think no matter which way we go if we are not able to make amends. At least that is where I am now.
Whenever I talk to ppl about our situation, it is so pittyful. they think i am crazy to even want to work things out.
Is there anybody that has gone the distance out there that could provide some encouragment and maybe provide some reassurance in "maybe" this is doable. I feel very hopeless...
Sometimes you need to realize when you have to let go & walk away. You are divorced, regardless what you consider inappropriate behavior, she is free to do whatever she wants.
You should start dating to build up your self-confidence & self-esteem, don't worry about pursuing a relationship with anyone new, just go out and meet people and get used to coming out of your shell. It will help you during this process.
