But...when you've sat for 16 months (13 of which H has been gone), hoping, praying, pleading, talking, crying, worried, stressed out, broken hearted, feeling hopeless and horrible bc your DD might be a victim of divorce, you tend to get emotionally charged and do some stupid crap!

I understand you are in a dark place, we have all been there but you really do sound like you are playing the victim card for all it's worth. I have been in "this place" for TWENTY ONE months and my H has been gone for 20 of them. You are not the only LBS to feel broken hearted, betrayed and hopeless. Many of us here, myself included, have gone through this process while battling chronic and incurable illness. We have suffered financial ruin and legal battles that are nothing short of horrifying WHILE dealing with our WAS and their affairs and the general BS all WAS are so versed at dishing out.