Can I save my marriage?

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Gnosis, thanks for the tips. I followed every single one. I was bubbly, had a good time.

Nobody brought up the sitch thank goodness. I think they knew it was not the time or place.

I didn't care about H while he was there, I continued to visit with others, when he sat by me, I ignored him unless he spoke directly to me, which I couldn't get out of, and it was good.

Of course its hard to see my SIL and BIL's happy families and I'm their with my boys and no H. But I have to get used to that. It is hard sometimes and there were moments where I did have to fake it, I think there will be for a while. But it is what it is.

R2C, dead on. My mind is definitely my worst enemy. I let it get the best of me quite often. Even after the party I came home and played with the boys for a while. Then start thinking about things then end up crying on the couch. Its easy to clean it when I'm out. But sometimes being at home in OUR home is hard. But hey, I can't be gone constantly. I have to start being okay with being at home, in OUR home. As soon as I start to "think" I get sad, so ya feeling definitely follow. Good point.