Hope and heartache

[mishka422]

It's like I'm a teenager again wondering if anyone will ever love me.

I hear ya. It's a tough thought to get past, but you will.

Will I have these feeling of rejection forever?

No. It will eventually fade as you find ways to fill your life and your time.

Tomorrow will be great, but do these mood swings ever totally go away?

They will become less extreme. Think about it though, in your life pre-bomb were your moods completely stable all the time? Did you live in a constant hum or was it still up and down but not as big a swing?

Think of your life in terms of a stereo equalizer. If you were to label each bar of the equalizer as different parts of your life and look at it before D entered your life it would look fairly even with just a few 'bass' blips here and there. Now though, facing the possibility of D, the bar labeled 'emotions' is booming like a car with major subwoofers and the distribution to the other areas of your life is suffering for it. You just have to take some time to get your bass back under control!

I don't know if I explained that very well, but I'm hoping you get the drift.