Its a good question Mnt_dreams...I have been mulling it over..The urge seems to be the greatest right as I'm leaving work and heading home. If I can hold off for 10 min or so...the urge goes away! Its ridiculous to me that most of the time, I am unable to hold off calling someone. This week, my goal will be to have a song I really love waiting for me as I leave work. I will put it on my iphone and bring headphones.
Otherwise, I am open to any suggestions.
Also, I think this week was particularly difficult bc I've had no initiation from exH and I've just been trying to not think about it. Before this week, he had started calling almost daily for 10 days or so...and then I think he must have gotten spooked.
Sigh. Can't count on him anyways....Why had I started expecting the call? Irritating set back. Won't do that again. Last saturday I was going to go to a party and then decided not to go cuz it was at a guy's house who is interested (I think), and I just didn't want to lead him on or get in a situation I'm emotionally not ready for. ExH happenned to call around that time and he got very worked up about me going to guy's house.....even though I said I wasn't going. To be honest, I shouldn't have said anything....and to be totally transparent, I was trying to make him jealous.
Games....not good, I know....I don't know why I did that....I just wanted a reaction....well, I got one! Oh well..live and learn, right?
I've made several emotional decisions in this past week...need to focus better...
I think I can....I think I can....I think I can! HA!
