So... it's come to this.

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Figured I should not let today go by without mentioning that one year ago I got the lastest bomb. I have been dealing with this bull for an entire year (actually much longer, but a full year for this latest mess). I have made several marks in the sand and each on of them have been crossed and still I allow myself to be stuck.

Some days I think I am doing so well and others (like today) I feel like I have made no progress at all.

My C keeps telling me I do not have to rush I will know when I know and can not make a move until I am ready, but each time makes me feel worse about myself.

Anyway I know I have no one but myself to blame for the sad state of my emotions today, like I said I just figured I should mark the date.