For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

Wow...okay. Well, I guess I AM a mess, but some of the things that were just posted, brought me to tears. Like I said, I fully admit that it was childish. Guility as charged!

But...when you've sat for 16 months (13 of which H has been gone), hoping, praying, pleading, talking, crying, worried, stressed out, broken hearted, feeling hopeless and horrible bc your DD might be a victim of divorce, you tend to get emotionally charged and do some stupid crap!

I really don't need to hear that my H is screwing the OW. Sorry, but that just doesn't help, even if it's true.

And I know feeling sorry myself isn't going to help. Trust me, I've been working on 180s/GAL. As you can all see, I'm a work in progress. But, I have taken steps: I'm doing more things with friends, just went to NY to visit a friend (HUGE for me), I'm taking a new class, joined a mom's group...I'm working on me. I really am. I just had a bad moment.

I hate childish drama. I coached middle school cheerleading for 4 years and I work with middle school and high school kids...that drama annoys the CRAP out of me. If I did that tonight, we'll shoot me. I made a mistake. I'm only a hurting human being who might have finally discovered her H's A. And yep, I acted like a fool. What more can I say?