You're definitely not alone in doing dumb things. This is new and strange territory for most of us. We just aren't used to the intensity of all those emotions. I hear it gets easier...

~Mark

Me: 38
W: 34
Together: 9yrs
1st M: may '03
1st D: april '08
1st bomb: june '08
remarried: oct '08
2nd bomb: aug '09 --(W asked for D one week into 3 mo. trial separation which was meant to save our M)