For those with a WAS...How do you cope?

[courts0818]

I fully admit, it was childish. I got way caught up in my emotions. I set out to make him jealous, it came back to hurt me. It was stupid and immature.

Like I said, I'm having a hard time even thinking straight and being rationale bc I'm so hurt.

And I feel like this has gone on for so long and nothing has worked - I have tried and tried to get his attention and again nothing has worked. I'm in the same miserable place I was one year ago.

Feeling a bit like an idiot and it comes from seeing OW's name in his email. It made it just too real for me. It's been eating away at me since Tuesday (when I saw it).

Suppose I need to calm down and think before I react - bc obviously I do stupid things when I act on my emotions.

sigh, sigh, sigh