Looks like I might soon be LBS...newcomer here

[brownidmom]

Gnosis~

BIM, thanks for responding. As for the lie detector test accuracy, I agree with you. I really wish that the stupid machine had done it's job. If you'll pardon me for saying so, I think your H is a mule. .

Yep, it was a most disturbing day when the results were received. I just couldn't believe it. After I read up on how those actually work, I knew exactly what had happened. I told H after the test that the examiner confused me with some test questions and that I felt misled by his explanations. Thinking he is a mule is a much nicer thought than some of the words I have used in my thoughts when thinking of him. I used to think he was the best person I had ever met. Seems like so long ago now.

Keep working on your boundaries and stand up for yourself. You're a good person and I hope the scales fall out of your H's eyes soon.

Thanks, me too. I have rededicated myself to God and have felt more peace in the last 24 hours than I have in a very long time. I still have no idea where this will all lead, but I do have faith that we will all be okay, great even. Since the only actions I know for sure that are to be taken at this time are setting boundaries and taking excellent care of myself and my boys, I will just STAND AND BE until I know what my next step is to be.

Today, our 11th anniversary, we took the boys to the movies and to eat afterwards. When we got home, I gave my H a quick peck on the lips and simply said, "A kiss for you on our anniversary." I had absolutely no expectations in response, for I had no reason to do it other than for myself and to honor my beliefs. I know it wasn't DBing the way it is intended, but I know that it was the right thing to do, for me.

Yep, I feel better than I have in a long time. I am thankful for all that I have and for all that is to come. GOD is good.

BIM