Thanks Gardener. I do like not stinking like smoke and hacking...plus the morning breath is not missed at all!
I have a question for all of you. If you've been able to read through my long rambling posts, you notice that a recurring theme is "Why won't she file?" I can't figure this out.
This is what she wants. I can understand why.
The paperwork is done. The contract is signed with the attorney, we've gone to MC; but she says it is over.
She said it was money; I offered to give it to her, even though we both get the same amount of $
She said it was not having time to file...she can do so over lunch right in our town.
She got mad at me one day when I told her I was tired of the limbo. She said "I have been in limbo for 4 years, do you think I give a sh!t that you've been in limbo for 2 months?"
There is always an excuse; and she keeps telling me that I need to move on, that it is over, don't have any hope, etc... God, she even nodded yes in our MC session when I said "I don't know what that means, am I supposed to go out and start dating?"
WTH is this all about. Maybe it is the Holidays, but honestly, am I wrong to see this as a good sign?
I think she is holding my feet to the fire. She is conflicted about the divorce, but also knows that I am making changes, she realizes some of her issues and wants to see where time takes us before doing so. However, I am WAY TO CLOSE to my situation, obviously, to view it objectivly.
Like I said, I now firmly believe that depression has been an issue in our marriage for years. it is really showing up now. I know she has already made an appt with a counselor in another town, which I think is another positive, if not for our M at least for her.
AM I WRONG TO BE HOPEFUL? How do you detatch and remain hopeful? They seem to work against eachother.
