Thanks everyone. The funeral was beautiful and H and I actually had some meaningful conversation about our early years. It brought some connection for us, but also some pain.
We have decided to slow down the separation, give it some further time and discussion and adequate time to tell the kids and those closest to us first before he moves out. This has given me more peace. I was feeling it was being rushed and feeling suspicious about why.
In the meantime, I need to get back to feeling FABULOUS and ATTRACTIVE! not there yet, but that's my goal... :-)
