I just finished reading your thread. I feel for you and admire the patience you've had.
My situation is somewhat differnt from yours; I am the H and my W is the WAS, but I did many of the things your husband did to cause my W to leave. We were differnt people and didn't focus on our marriage. We both have great careers and three great kids. We are H.S. sweethearts. Our marriage was too far down the list of priorities.
I can tell you that when I read through your thread, I felt very low.
Currently, my W and I are seperated, we have been married for 11+ years and together for 15. The holidays are going to be very tough.
My W, I am confident, suffers from severe depression, and I am not saying that because I don't want this to be "my fault", I am saying it because I honestly believe it and our MC agreed 100%.
I haven't posted on many other peoples threads, and I don't think I have much to offer as far as advice. My wife said ILYBINILWY at the end of August. We've been seperated since. She asked for a divorce.
I read DR and started DBing like crazy. I fell off the wagon a few times and have lived the rollercoaster day to day.
If you read "Love Dare" then you know that addicitons are parasites. They tend to feed on emptiness in our lives. We drink, view porn, gamble, etc.. because we are missing something in our lives. I suspect your H is doing more of this because he is missing more in his life, hopefully that is YOU.
I can't possibly imagine doing what I have been doing for as long as you have; but it gives me encouragment. I've only been at this since August.
I hate it when people say this to me, but like I said, I don't have much advice to give other than to "Hang in there".
