Apparently, OW contacted my H yesterday to let him know that she is starting to see someone else and that she is following her AA philosophy of "let go and let god" regarding her R with my H. H says he told her that is good because he wants to take the next few months with a trial separation with me to see what is really there in our M and focus on the M.
Is this is all true? Who knows? Personally, I think OW got the sh&* scared out of her when I found out.
H is still determined about the separation. I have let him know I have a lot to consider as well about whether I'm going to continue to let myself be treated this way by anybody.
Here is the biggest irony. The pastor who performed our wedding ceremony 19 years ago, a wonderful man H and I both respected and who was very important to us in those early years just died recently. We are going together to his funeral today. I hope I can handle it emotionally.
Barely hanging on, but at least I AM hanging on....
