So today, like Sleeper, I'm letting myself feel the anger at what has happened to my family. I'm angry that I was weak when I was capable of being strong.
I'm angry that as I look back at my entire marriage I was married to a woman who was a kind and loving person but did not have the relationship skills to be supportive when it really mattered.
I'm angry that she chose to run from problems, thinking that she could 'shock' me into action. Or thinking that her happiness was all that mattered.
I'm angry that my children will have to live with these memories for the rest of their lives. They will have trust issues and self esteem issues.
But, I'm glad that I'm the kind of man who can help them through this so that those issues aren't as bad as they were for me as a child when I went through this same experience.
