Can I save my marriage?

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I'm trying. It has been 6 weeks and I'm not comfortable yet. I still wake up with that pit in my stomach. I look around my house and at my two boys and feel like crawling in a hole (with them of course). I have been trying to keep busy as much as possible and I feel like I'm doing a good job, but there are just those moments that make me feel sick to my stomach.

Off to my nephews birthday party today on H's side. He is working but will most likely stop in for a few minutes. Just looking to be detached as much as possible when he arrives. It will be there first time I will be with his whole family and him since he left. Quite nervous on how he is going to act towards me and vice versa.