I went back and read through this one. What a mess I am! Somedays I am Mr. confident and other days I am pretty pathetic. I guess that is the rollercoaster.
I've been reading more threads to learn about other sitch's and it has really opened my eyes to how we as people act. I think we are all completly screwed up and drifing through life.
I read about affairs, people DBing for a year, 18 months or even longer. Holy smokes!
Last night, I was pretty down. I called up a friend and he came over. We watched 3:10 to Yuma and drank Bloody Mary's. When I have the kids, I can still GAL, even if it is in my PJs and in my house.
My W called the kids last night. I think part of the reason I am feeling better today is that I know what she is doing this weekend. You know the jealousy is sometimes tough...not knowing..what is she doing? Is she moving on? Going out? Dating someone? She's going to visit her Dad, so I am somewhat calmed by that.
Honestly, that is probably good. Her mom was a WAS and her DAD was the LBHS. It might be good for them to talk. Of course, a dad is always going to be supportive of his daughter, I would mine...but I also know he has a differnt perspective.
He also dealt with depression; and I wonder if my W is going to talk to him (he lives 4 hours away) because she needs to talk to him about the concerns the MC shared that she should consider some medication to help her figure out her direction.
Of course, the MC also told me I need to "fall out of love", but I think he meant "detatch" That will be cleared up on Tuesday when I see him.
So today the kids and I are off to the Library for a while; then maybe to the Zoo or a stop at teh mall.
