Not sure what to do

[Inaspin]

Stu , wish I new how to deal with it, I've stopped drinking for the last 6 weeks, o I cant even go out and get drunk to numb the pain. I think he only way to deal with the pain will be to accept it is what it is and try and move on from there, I've done this about 1000 time in my head over the last week, I'm just hoping it starts to stick eventually.

Like deep said I think detaching is the only way, I just wish it was as easy to do as it is to type.

I know what you mean about your W being fine while you are dying inside, what is killing me is I try to detach and then like today, she treated my crap at my S concert this morning, did not say more than 2 words to me, I leave I'm feeling all the pain and anger, I say to myself that she has given up and I must start to move on, I calm down and start to feel a little better, then she phones me for no real reason just to say my S is sleeping and he had fun at concert. Then hope builds up in me, I think great maybe theirs a chance, but I can bet you when I get home tonight she will be as cold as ice and all the pain will come flooding back again.

Just got to keep trying I suppose and take it each moment at a time.