G ~ I am back to my serene self now that I purged my black thoughts with the letter to H - A part of me wants to send it (I won't) and part of me knows he would either ignore it or use it against me somehow - Besides I think if I said I sent it Puppy would somehow find a way to literally come through my computer and smack me upside my head. I felt better getting it out and that is what matters. I am calm and collected, I just hate to hear those words come out of my sons' mouth, hate he is even thinking the thoughts and hate I can't make it all better. However I will put forth my best effort to keep his mind occupied on other happier things, should be easy since he is 6 and has the attention span of a dust bunny (j/j)
B ~ I am so happy about your rededication! That should bring some much needed peace as long as you continue to look up for answers and not around (easier said then done). You will come to learn I am a very firm believer in the fact that each and every person in your life, no matter the length, is there for a purpose...I don't believe in coincidences either, I believe in signs from God showing me the way. The signs are there all around us, we just have to open ourselves up to actually seeing them - Big and small.
Originally Posted By: brownidmom
I am at peace. I still don't know how I am going to deal with everything, but I know I can take it one moment at a time, one day at a time and me and my boys will come out of this state we are currently in SOON and we will be better than just okay.
This brings me to tears...This is what I personally hoped for and what seemed to take the longest in my sitch...I fought it every step of the way as well as the advice I received, the help that was offered, the ears that were willing to listen etc...For some dumb reason, I thought I had to do this on my own - Whew, glad I don't think that way anymore lol!
Honor your anniversary, I did this last month actually...It was our 20th and I couldn't help but think we should have been in Vegas getting remarried in some cheesy roadside chapel (something we had been planning for awhile) however we weren't. I didn't say anything to him however I had most of the day to myself and just basically did things I enjoyed. He didn't contact me at all that day (that stung) however did tell me the next day Happy Anniversary.
I am getting long winded each time I post haha. I am off to read your update.
Have a good night to you both
(((Hugs)))
May All Who Seek To Take My Life Be Put To Shame And Confusion; May All Who Desire My Ruin Be Turned Back In Disgrace. ~Psalm 40:14~
