maybe if I had some closure like just a simple, "I'm sorry" I could get past this.)
nope, not even a begging apology would've done it... x was sorrowful (to what degree was it from him or his AD meds I'll never know) but not even that healed me instantly from all the mess he put me through (same story, had ow, she kicked him out, got another woman and married her in a hurry).
You do have the answer at the end of your post, forgiveness, that is the only true way to begin true lasting healing... I know it's hard and to a tiny degree I still have to remind myself that I forgave him...you are forgiving him not because he deserves it... you are doing it for yourself, becuase your Father in heaven forgave you and expects you to do likewise... in due time everyone will respond to what they've done.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
