Do not cry in front of him or project a "woe is me I cannot live without you attitude"
You are worthy of respect and you will engage with him on the future of the R when he has remembered what respecting a R looks like.
There is no competition. She is irrelevant to you. You are worthy.
Not only are you worthy but how will HE now prove that he is worthy?
It takes time. Work o yourself and let him work on himself.
Changes must be made by BOTH of you. It is not a one way street.It is not about him waltzing back into your life and picking up where you left off. All our R suffered from serious problems and we all contributed to them. BUT we need to ensure that when our S return it is not business as usual on both sides or we will be asking for trouble in spades.
Life is to be enjoyed and you will enjoy yours. Trials come and go but you are confident and secure and you WILL make it.
If you believe in God, seek and follow his counsel. He knows best and will always guide us where He wants us to be.
