X offered for me to pick up D early this afternoon, but did not allow me to see her any during the week even after asking several times. I called X last night and this afternoon to let her know I could not pick D up early today. X was like “well I won’t be there when you come to get her”. I have already made plans to go to dinner. I asked her if she wanted to try and get together this weekend and hang out with D and me. She said she had some plans already and asked what our plan was; I told her we were just going out to enjoy some of the outdoors. She was like “that is your plan?” (like it was not good enough). I told her we had other plans with other people on Friday evening and Saturday afternoon, but that is some time we could go out and enjoy some of the weather. She started asking if I was going to have her around anyone who is smoking.
By her saying she has made plans for dinner and throughout the weekend. IMO She def has OM. I flat out asked her and she said it was none of my business. I mentioned she previously told me she did not. She was asking me if I had my D around other women. She said she would let me know if she it got serious. Wow. So it sounds to me like she is going out with other people and hopes that one day it will get serious, but she does not even provide “us” with an opportunity to resolve anything.
She said I did not ever tell her anything and was very vague about what she asks me. So I told I don’t have a GF and I don’t have my daughter around a bunch of different women. She was like good.
X is thinking of herself. Not really anyone else, but what’s new. She asked me some time ago if I wanted to get my D the week after Thanksgiving be she was trying to go out of town. I think it is best for me not to do that week to accommodate her schedule with a potential OM.
X was telling me I am vague about everything she asks, so she thinks she ought to be as well. So I said I would be direct and said we should both agree to be direct then. So she begins to tell me about a cough syrup in the news over a year ago and how I should not be giving that to my D. wow. That is a stretch on what she can inform me on.
She says she would answer any questions if I just asked. I tried to explain to her that I told her I have lots of questions, but when I do ask questions she gets angry. So she got defensive about me telling her that too. Oh.
It def does hurt to think she is with OM and I try to be nice. I just need to go out with other people and try to make my life good with my D. Don’t think X has any interest in coming around and this stuff is too hurtful for me to be in. X is still all about hurting me, even after two years separated. I think she is so lost. If she is unable to hear anything I have to say then how could we ever move beyond this point?
