Ups and Downs

[wanttobebetter]

I can tell you that you never know where the next day will take you. All you can do is be prepared. There are so many of us out there like you that just keep plugging away. Stay tough, stay strong and believe in yourself and others will follow. I'm hoping for you buddy.

[givingitmyall]

It feels like its really the end now.

No, man, it's not. It's a new beginning. You will still have your S.

I hear you. But, can you re-focus on the good things in your life. Yes, the good things: your S, yourself and the very real (probable) prospect of a great future.

What exactly is ending? Your M? That was over a while back, just like the rest of us. And do you really want your current "M" anyway? Don't YOU deserve to be happy? Don't you deserve to be with someone who wants to be with you?

So, your currently crappy M in which you were underappreciated and not "good enough" is ending. What are you holding on to? I'm not sying we here are innocent victims. Far from that. Fix what needs fixing, pick yourself up off the floor, and get moving!

What choice do you have?

[Energizer Bunny]

Thanks Wtbb. I saw how your sitch had been all over.

That's a pretty good summary of it Gima.

[givingitmyall]

Thanks Wtbb. I saw how your sitch had been all over.

That's a pretty good summary of it Gima.

I understand the grieving. And that has to happen. Just don't crawl down in that hole. It's a he!! of a climb out.

[Energizer Bunny]

Oddly, I'm not really in a hole. It seems like it's time.

Still not really easy, but it's just time.

I think she's trying to pi$$ me off tonight, but it's not really getting to me anymore.

[Gardener]

That's a pretty good summary of it Gima.

Gima's good at that. And helping. And giving. One of the best.

(yeah, I know, Gima: "Aw, shucks" )
True.

[Energizer Bunny]

She got all done up and went out for the night. She hasn't been like this in a while.

I really think it would be easier if she would just leave. At least then I wouldn't feel so disrespected all of the time.

[Energizer Bunny]

Funny how I can want her to go one minute and have it hurt so bad the next.

I asked her what she is planning to do this morning. She's looking for a rental. This is good but is STILL hurtful and uncomfortable to talk about.

[Energizer Bunny]

Is being a cold, distant, rude person just a coping mechanism or is she really just a b!tch at heart?

[wanttobebetter]

I say coping mechanism. Mine was the same way.