I've found myself in a new sort of slump. Instead of being sad when I am away from home, I find myself far more sad at home. Of course there are memories...pictures, the kids, making dinner without my w, etc.. Then there is the jealousy...what is she doing? Is she meeting someone right now? Is she dating? I don't think that is the case; but those are the thoughts in my mind.
Of course, when I am away, then I assume it is her doing that. maybe not. She says she doesn't miss me often, but sometimes does. of course, when i am away, I am GALing to no end. I am out with friends, playing cribbage with a stranger at the neighborhood bar, etc... I enjoy myself, I don't feel too lonely. But at home, when the kids go to bed, wow...the lonliness really sinks in. I want my W back and now I need to start "falling out of love with her" WTF does that mean anyway?
I had some encouraging news today. Two differnt people, who have talked with my W, have said that she either directly said, or implied that she is struggling with her decision. I guess that is promising, but I also think that is normal and anyone who does get divorced probably also struggles with it at one point or another.
Tonight it is supper, then some Wii and maybe a movie with the kids, then it is bedtime. Maybe there is a Rocky marathon or something on that I can watch and take my mind off everything. I don't know.
Does anyone have advice on how to fall out of love? Is that even good advice from our MC? He said that we need to get back to square one in order to do anything...and that means falling out of love and then seeing if we fall back in love. I just am not sure about that. Thoughts?
