The main problem is that after all this time you've never detached yourself from her. That's why you feel like you have to do all or nothing.

So are you no longer "standing"?

M-43 W-40
2D - 9 and 5

Emotion, yet peace.
Ignorance, yet knowledge.
Passion, yet serenity.
Chaos, yet harmony.
Death, yet a new life.

RECONCILED AND WISER