I met my wife to grab S7's halloween costume so she can wear it for her party tomorrow at school.
She had just come from the bar.
We were talking for awhile or more like she was tslking and I was listening. It's like she's compelled to tell me about everything she's doing. Some interesting things come out of her mouth. She tells me how she likes hanging out at the bar just being "one of the guys" (growing up she was a tomboy and always identified more with the male gender). She says she's happy for them to buy her beer and to go home alone and go to bed.
OK. Here's the slip. Most times when we see each other before we part we give each other a friendly hug. Well this time when we hugged she looked so damn good and I gave her a quick kiss on the cheek. She giggled.
Things are easier but at the same time not easier. The times I interact with her I enjoy because I have fun but at the same time it tests my patience because I want more NOW.
Overall I enjoy life more and I so much more open minded than I used to be. I make my kids laugh all the time and they really truly love to be with me.
Wow...again D, I am impressed that you realize this. Most don't, and wonder why they are sabotaging themselves.
Slow movement is good, it builds a solid foundation.
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Overall I enjoy life more and I so much more open minded than I used to be. I make my kids laugh all the time and they really truly love to be with me.
So you're better for this then, huh? : )
Experience is a brutal teacher, but you learn. My God, do you learn. - C.S. Lewis
Life is usually all about how you handle Plan B. - Jack3Beans
Listen without defending; Speak without offending - FaithinAK
Things seem to be pretty stable right now. Monday I had to run s12'S fundraiser paperwork over to my wife's. She invited me to stay for dinner and watch a movie with her and the kids. We have a lot of fun when we're together. One thing I noticed was that she didn't use her cell phone at all while I was there.
Well that changed in a hurry. I went over there yesterday to pick up D7 so we could go to the Father/Daughter dance at her school. We had so much fun. I hung out there for a bit before we went. My wife was texting like crazy. Where before it would upset me, now it just irritates me. When we got back from the dance, she didn't give either of us a chance to really tell her about the dance. It seems as though the fog has thickened again.
For the most part yeah but to be honest I do find myself getting discouraged sometimes when she pulls away again. Not every time but the times I do feel that way I pray for inner peace, more patience and strength.
I thought I was a patient person before this started. Not even close to where I am now, and I'm not even as patient as I want or need to be.
Was a little on edge on Sunday so I asked some questions I probably shouldn't have. I asked her why she never gave me a chance. She said I'm a great guy but she loves me as a friend not in a romantic way. That her love for me gradually disappeared. I asked her since she considers me her best friend now, why she hated me 4 months ago. She said she didn't hate. She was CONFUSED!!
I guess it's good some kind of love for me has re-surfaced.
Don't feel bad about asking her questions. Sometimes we just want to test the water, you know?
Just don't make it a regular thing or you might burn yourself.
Don't you feel like you can 'see' the confusion in their heads sometimes? That is the one thing that drove me crazy!!!
By the way, how did football season end for the kids? Did they win another game?
My Noles play the Gators next week. I hope you become a fan next week. We could use all the support. Hopefully we can pull an upset. Wouldn't that be awesome???
