Resolve, persaverance, character, prayer, patience. It's creating a drive in me like none other to pray and be stronger, I'm not afraid of a lot of things anymore.
Again not angry at MLC, angry at her situation. To be angry with her is not loving.
Oh I'm also reading A LOT and I'm being creative, had a blast with kids this week, we had a great couple days.
Not treating them to DisneyLand stuff either.
I used to be a doodler, got son and I sketch pads and we drew for hours vs watching TV.
D is seeing Dad can be fun.
I guess mom is picking them up tonite, told kids go ahead and give MLC a key to our "adventure spot," that's what we call the duplex, it's not a home yet, she's come over two days in a row while I was at work, but hung out in the driveway D said "Mom was in a bad mood." Then S said yeah Dad she even yells at me now.
"Faith, Hope, Love and patience, kids your mom is going through somethings."
"I'm doing my part giving her space, you kids do your part and be understanding and follow my lead, your mom is a great person and doesn't mean what she's saying. When your angry a part of your brain called the cerebellum does most of the talking, so it really isn't your mom, but that small part of her brain, it's not you or her."
I don't care if she comes in, I'm not vindictive besides there isn't much in there one and two she can see I can keep a house clean still:)
I'm also sending some shirts back with my son, something he can wear of mine, he used to sleep in my comfy tshirts, so I'm sending them back with him so he can sleep in my comfy tshirts, besides they were gifts from wife from yrs ago and a couple from our trip to Disney two wks before the bomb. Also told the kids I have some letters from yrs ago from their mom to me, asked S to put them back in treasure box for me.
I have the Octivus Poem on the fridge, so now S says in morning..."don't give up kid."
I've been reading other peoples threads, I haven't posted to them, i haven't learned enough to offer any advice, but there is some suggestions on the other threads that makes sense that i didn't see on mine, that now i can make use of.