I am just venting it has been a while since I have seen or heard from him.......or even heard his voice......but I will I will write myself a very long letter and then throw it out ...I am not much on journaling.....maybe I need to start.... I like my life now, getting so much better, I look back 2 yrs ago and I was a hot mess. Suicidal thoughts back then....didnt want to get out of bed.....24/7 thoughts of my husband...why this, why that. Wouldnt eat for days....I didnt cry, I sobbed, how pathetic I was and must of looked to my family. They are so proud of who I have become.....and so am I Thanks for your responses .....hope you all are doing well..and K I might take you up on that one day......thanks for the invite and I do still have your number.....Jack thank you I hope and Pray your family is doing good.....be blessed my young men friends.....I like that.... bye guys.
