Trying LRT - Please Help!

[ClingingToHope]

Yes. It'll be my first apart as well. Five weeks ago my W called to kind of work these out and I couldn't keep it together. I forced the R talk and got the "I haven't changed my mind" talk.

So I won't do that again. In my case, the weekends work in my favor so my W will have to make requests.

When I see her now I see nothing but happiness that I'm gone -- I know, believe half of what you see -- still no hesitation. In my heart, I believe she'll have to have some regret Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years.

Things I'll miss? The annual trip to the Tree Farm north of here. W would pick out the tree. We'd all buy Wassle -- a heated apple juice -- do a little shopping. The girls would play with the puppies. This place has a couple of dogs who they make sure give birth right around Christmas.

Then we cart the tree home, I saw the bottom off and we put it up. Last year it was really lopsided and it took us an hour just to get it to stand up properly.

I'm still finalizing some things. She's taking them the night before Thanksgiving and the day after. I have them the day of and am taking them to my uncle's house.

For Christmas, my brother-in-law has invited me to his house about two hours away for Christmas Eve. I may or may not.

Christmas, they'll either wake up at W's or I'll drive them over there first thing. Then I'll get them back that night.

For New Year's Eve, it's a Thursday, so they'll be at W's house and I'll go out. The next day? I'm not sure.

Everything about this sucks.