I am having such a hard time holding it together right now.
My H just sent me an FYI email. "...I do know that my brother and family are planning to be back [in hometown] from Dec. 30th through that weekend so if you want them [kids] during that time, I would need to know soon." I didn't respond to him.
It is H's weekend to have the kids so I have no problem in that aspect. It is just that I want to be there so badly visiting his family too. It hurts to know that they will be together without me. At this point, it is not so much that I will miss H, but rather miss seeing my kids and their cousins play together. I will miss hanging out with his parents. And the list goes on.
I know that this is over a month away, but I just feel so...I can't even find the right words. I realize this is just a pity party right now, but can't help it.
Me & H: 33 yrs S: 4 & 6 D: 2 M: 9 yrs ILYBNILWY: 8/09 SEPARATED: 9/09 The Beginning
