Hey shiny...sometimes even I I'm not really sure of what I am hehehe OK here goes.. I'm in Canada. Was born in Portugal, lived there on and off and it's the place I consider "home". Due to my dad's job - my adoptive dad - I lived in many other countries and had a blast learning about and visiting themost wonderful places in the world!!!
MY birthmother is from Brazil with brazilian indian and italian ancestry, and my birthftather from ANgola. NOw can you find more diversity than this????? LOL
NO wonder even I get confused.
And yes.. before you wonder.. I have lots of bagage weighting me down from the past. The most important one being the need to belong, to be loved for what I am.- but that's another story .
Still I am as optimistic a person as you can find, and really stubborn so it's difficult to really get me down... sometimes I just lie down a bit to rest.. but it doesn't take long :)

Saudade.... well it's all you described. Much stronger than just missing, and not easily understood until you feel it. Then it doesn't need translation, it's there in your heart.

ANyway good idea about the paper missing in your jeans pocket. It happens to me a lot... ONce I even founf a $100 bill I had left in my pocket don't even remember why LOL

Twin it's a pity it wasn't one of those you found instead of the note huh? Just joking, not trying to minimize what you're feeling right now:)
Just sit still, don't let anything out you might regret and be your own adorable self.

Hugsies
nightshade

"Each and every one of us is deserving of a kind word, a gentle thought and the gift of understanding. "