All morning I was thinking, the she better not call and bother me about something otherwise she'll get an earful. (I've been firm, ended some convos early, but have never lost it).

She called. Cordially she mentioned something about ch13 paperwork she was sending in. Just wanted me to know she was taking care of it. "Yeah...that's good to know...uh huh...ok...bye" So it was fine. I held it together.

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Whether it's a good exchange or a bad exchange it's just not good for me. There are times during these exchanges where it feels just like it was when we were M. And that's the part that makes me sad.

"My actions are my only true belongings. I cannot escape the consequences of my actions. My actions are the ground upon which I stand." Thich Nhat Hanh