Not a good day really, coming home tonight some one hit the back of my car and now I have a very sore neck and a car to sort out and Im going back to work after two and half years at home on monday!

That and a H who obviously wants to come home but is still umming and arrhhing about it, he came over tuesday night, stayed wednesday took me out for a lovely meal, as I previously blogged got a bit peeved when I mention organising something to do for xmas and new year. He was supposed to go back to his place thursday but the thing he was going back for was cancelled, he was obviously upset that I didnt seem to mind him going and that I had not seemed over enthuastic about him coming back up monday and tuesday, so time for some home truths gently said I hasten,

So I told him that I did want him here and that it was nice being with him, BUT if he was just using me for cake/comfort then I had to move on, it has taken a lot for me to stand on my feet and I cant go backwards. He validated my efforts to stand on my own two feet and said I'd done really well. He told me he wasnt cake/comfort eating and that he thought things were going well and that he hoped that we could see what each other wanted to do and maybe get back together, all of this in a no commitment kinda speech. So I told him that was good and he decided he'd go back this morning, this morning came and he asked me what I'd like to do, I had planned some serious me time but felt like I should in the interest of reconcilation, not sure if that was right or not, so we went out shopping, went to a hobby shop for him and I showed much greater interest and patience than I had before in his hobby, came back and he was due to go home, guess what he obviously didnt want to, so I kissed him goodbye and hopped out of his car and dived indoors outta the rain.

Obviously new job starts next week and I have quite a busy social schedule as well so the time he has snuck over the last few weeks isnt going to be there, could really do with some help with this folks, can I move this forward into piecing or is it wisest to let it arrive there slowly or is there something else I should be doing!

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W 47
H 47
M 24
T 30

Once lost but now found and happily married again!