Sadgirl, you hit the nail on the head. I know what needs to be done I just have to make myself do it. I was out driving to this morning, the sun is shining and I thought to myself, life is too short to be yanked around by a man that wants me one minute and doesn't the next. As hard as it is to accept, I want him to want me all the time. Until that happens or IF that happens, then I am going to be strong. I have a lot of support here. My two sisters live here and I have 2-3 really good friends helping me through this. I will be okay. I know that.

When H called this morning he just has a way of yanking me in. I quickly sent him a text which didn't need to be more than that, and he complains why I wasn't very nice and why I didn't ask him how his morning is going? I just don't know what to say when questions like that are asked of me? Why couldn't he just send a text back stating where the diaper bag is? Don't worry I'm not dwelling on it. I would have even a few days ago. But I don't have time to. I still have a wall in my livingroom to finish painting...hehe...its just the response that I'm having trouble with now. I feel I got over a hurdle today, but I snuck over it, I want to jump over it with pride. Help if anyone knows what to do in these sitch's. Hope everyone is having a good day.


M: 31
H: 29
Married: 6 yrs
Children : 7yr old, 5yr old, 2yr old





Separated: Sept. '09
Moved Back In for wrong reasons: Nov. 30, 09
Recomitted to our Marriage: Jan. 25, 10
Threatening to leave again: July,14