I hope you realize how FORTUNATE you are to have people like CityGirl, Trent, SadGirl, Coach, Ready2Change, Kettricken and others giving you such PATIENT, amazing advice.
I strongly suggest you start IMPLEMENTING some of it, because even though their patience is obviously stronger than mine, there WILL come a day when it wanes, and their posts to you (tho I'm sure not their concern) will decrease.
At some point, YOU have to do the work. I pray it will be very soon.
