So his depression goes up and down and we talk about it. He was very upset that German footballer killed himself, eventhough as he said, he had had lots of counselling. I said, you wouldnt do that would you? He started to say, I do.. (as in I dont think so) but corrected himself to say, no, no I wouldnt. Its very hard being around someone with depression, but he's brighter today and yesterday and makes me laugh alot!
We are at the 6 month mark and I do have moments when I think, if he did leave again it might almost be a relief, if that doesnt sound a little strange. But generally, things are truly great.
He finally went to the GUI clinic today 5 months after I asked him to (booked a day off !) and got the all clear with everything. He made me laugh with tales of what they did to him (involved a long poky stick up a very small hole), but he didnt mind, he said, thats how much I love you. Another little milestone ticked off !
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Me:40! H:37 Together: 12yrs IDLY & left 11/07 ADs 03/08 OW 8/08 Reconciled 05/09 now married! my thread
