As Snodderly suggested, please continue to come here and post...if nothing else to vent the different emotions you'll be going through for some time to come.
This online community is filled with love and support, no matter the circumstances. Let all of us help you if we can.
Again..I'm so very sorry for your family's loss. May your H be at peace in Gods loving arms.
Women are angels. And when someone breaks our wings, we simply continue to fly...on a broomstick. We are flexible