Magnificent

[mishka422]

Ok now, I know not many of you are fans of Slipknot...a little hardcore....but I just heard this song for the first time tonight. This is actually the softer side of Slipknot and the words to this song screamed at me. Brilliant!

Snuff
by Slipknot

Snuff


Bury all your secrets in my skin
Come away with innocence and leave me with my sins
The air around me still feels like a cage
And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again

So if you love me let me go
And run away before I know
My heart is just too dark to care
I can?t destroy what isn?t there

Deliver me into my fate
If I?m alone I cannot hate
I don?t deserve to have you
Ooh, my smile was taken long ago
If I can change I hope I never know

I still press your letters to my lips
And cherish them in parts of me that savor every kiss
I couldn?t face a life without your lights
But all of that was ripped apart when you refused to fight

So save your breath, I will not care
I think I made it very clear
You couldn?t hate enough to love
Is that supposed to be enough?

I only wish you weren?t my friend
Then I could hurt you in the end
I never claimed to be a saint
Ooh, my own was banished long ago
It took the death of hope to let you go

So break yourself against my stones
And spit your pity in my soul
You never needed any help
You sold me out to save yourself

And I won?t listen to your shame
You ran away, you?re all the same
Angels lie to keep control
Ooh, my love was punished long ago
If you still care don?t ever let me know
If you still care don?t ever let me know

[dday101798]

Dig Slipknot and their spinoffs.

Could really use a word of encouragement.

[MichelleLT]

Cool lyrics.

TGIF!!!

[mishka422]

WOO HOO!

[dday101798]

WOO HOO!

Tell me about it. After today's little episode, I am going to seriously misbehave tonight. I was supposed to go out for a "Happy Hour" after work, but after not having been drinking much for this long, a long drive home and being highly upset over earlier, I don't think that's such a good idea. Especially on Friday the 13th.

[mishka422]

Since I'm a glutton for punishment, I texted Gabe tonight to ask if he was putting his half of the test fee in tonight because the check is going to bounce! His response was that he would put it in tonight. Ok....thankfully the check didn't hit today but it probably will on Monday. Hope he follows through.

Of course, I just had to ask one more question......I asked him if he is coming tomorrow to the testing. His response? "I will try. I work 10 to 6 but I may workout something."

WTH? He's had a week to get someone to work his shift but his priorities are so screwed up that he is going to 'try' to be there for the biggest day so far in his son's life? A$$$$$$$$$!!!!!!!!!!!!

[mishka422]

Today went FABULOUS even though I had to see Gabe for about an hour of it.

Gabe came to the house early this morning and took Marc to get a haircut (thank goodness!) and then dropped him back off to get ready for his test. He was still telling Marc that he didn't know if he would be able to come to his test today and Marc was pretty upset about it. Usually Marc doesn't get emotional about these things but today he was. I certainly didn't need him distracted by that!

Got Marc to karate and he was so amped up I thought he was going to come out of his skin. WARNING - I'm really going to bore you with some details now.

He did fabulous on his techniques. He faltered a little in his forms but came out passing on that. That took the first hour of the time. No Gabe. They started their self-defense grappling and Gabe showed up. He stood in the other room looking through the window instead of trying to get into the very crowded room where all the action was taking place. Marc finished his self-defense and I saw Gabe go out the door with his keys in his hand. WTH? They were beggining their target hits which are so impressive to watch. Never in my life did I think I'd see the day my son could step up to a man holding two small targets high in the air and see him jump and switch kick them in the air. Good heavens! It's stunning! They were about to start sparring which is the truly nerve racking part of all of this. Marc kept looking for his dad and I really thought he was going to get too distracted. I texted Gabe to ask where he went. He said he'd be back in 5 minutes. I motioned to Marc to let him know so he's stop watching the darned door. Apparently the broom's son was at the swim stadium up the road and had left his goggles in the car and needed them. Lordy.

Sparring went really well. They do something called 'the ring of fire'. They are split into groups of 6 by age group and size and strength. Marc's group was the scariest. They were all teenage to adult men with some serious power. One of them stands in the middle and each of the others in the circle spar with the person in the middle for about 45 seconds each. The person in the middle spars for about 5 minutes straight like that. It's exhausting to watch! Marc ended up with the toughest guy in the whole place as his last sparring partner. Marc got a bloody nose from a nasty side kick to the face that he missed the block on and Ian has some pretty bruised ribs from Marc's final blow spinning round kick. It was brilliant!!!!!!!!

Long story short.....:) MARC PASSED HIS BLACK BELT TEST and is now a 1st degree black belt. He will begin working on his 2nd degree but his contract is up in April and I don't think I can manage the expense anymore. He's probably going to have to take a break until I can manage my budget better. We'll see.

Gabe was there hovering. I talked to him a couple of minutes. That was all I could stand.

Gave Marc a choice for dinner - Red Lobster or Olive Garden. He picked Olive Garden. I swear my child thinks he's Italian - he would rather have anything alfredo than anything else. We went 'glow golfing' afterward and bowled 2 games. It was really fun.

All in all.......GREAT DAY! I couldn't be prouder. Can you tell?

[BobbiJo]

Yay!!! That is fabulous news~ I am so happy for Marc and for you, too! Nathan only got to a green belt...

Sounds like he did a fantastic job and that is so rewarding for him, to earn his black belt!

Glad you had an awesome day.

[mishka422]

I just got an email with a wonderful list of life lessons that I think we all could use a reminder on.

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
9. Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.
10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.
16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.
21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion Today is special.
22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
24. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25. Frame every so-called disaster with these words ''In five years, will this matter?".
26. Always choose life.
27. Forgive everyone everything.
28. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29. Time heals almost everything. Give time, time.
30. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32. Believe in miracles.
33. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36. Your children get only one childhood.
37. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd
grab ours back.
40. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41. The best is yet to come.
42. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43. Yield.
44. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift.

[kat727]

I sent that to ex when I was still trying to work things out. Wouldn't you know he really hit on #11? Guilt will get you every time.

Glad to hear about Marc. Congratulations!! Happy for you both and glad that Gabe was there at least for part of it.

kat