Not Me...Ever part 2

[Gardener]

Serenity. Haven't read your sitch update tonight. I will.
But I badly need feedback on the mindf*ck (pardon my french) that my STBXW gave me tonight.
Thanks.

[brownidmom]

My Friends ~


I admitted to myself that I allowed him to break me and break me he did.

I needed to move forward with or without him.

So I went to the place I know best - Up - I finally forgave H for the pain and destruction he has caused, I finally turned all of it over to Him, I released my demons, I released my marriage, my husband, my wants, my hurts and my anger to Him - All of it.

I get down and pray every night for my H, for my children, for all of you here who help everyone as well as for your WAS's.

We are going to be just fine my friends, no matter the outcome.

Matthew 5:44
But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you

(((Serenity)))

You made me cry. A good cry. A cry that I have needed for a couple of weeks now.

Best of all, you made me look UP.

Thanks,
BIM

[Serenity13]

(((((BIM)))))

Looking UP is the only thing that is going to get you the peace you seek...

I am sorry I made you cry though, however I have found a good cry is cleansing to my soul.

Hope you are doing well this evening.

Stay strong and keep your faith.

[givingitmyall]

Serenity,

I haven't posted much on your thread. But, I have been following your posts, especially recently. And they always lift me up when I am feeling down.

Thank you.

[Gardener]

Serenity,

My Friends ~I finally forgave H for the pain and destruction he has caused,

Good for you
"To forgive is to release a prisoner
And discover the prisoner was you"

(((S)))

[Serenity13]

GIMA ~

No need to thank me...

Thank you for your kind words...

There is alot of sadness and hurt on these boards and when I am down someone always comes by to lift me up so I want to continue that...

I am thankful it helps...

[Gardener]

As always, Thank you for your thoughtfulness.
Gardener(((())))Serenity

[Gardener]

How's my Serenity, tonight?
Serene, I hope?

[brownidmom]

(((((BIM)))))

Looking UP is the only thing that is going to get you the peace you seek...

I am sorry I made you cry though, however I have found a good cry is cleansing to my soul.

Hope you are doing well this evening.

Stay strong and keep your faith.

(((Serenity)))

Don't be sorry. I am a big believer that we get what we need when we need it. OR sometimes again and again until we are READY for it.

I rededicated myself to GOD today. The last few days, one thing after another have been coming at me exactly when I needed them. I don't believe in coincidence. It happens for a reason. Today at work, a woman whom I have worked closely with for almost 3 years sent me an e-mail because I said something to her yesterday that helped her with her evening. She e-mailed me to thank me and I walked to her desk and started talking. She ended up in my office a little while later and I shared my sitch with her. SHE was exactly what I needed today. Totally changed my perspective on things!!!

Tomorrow will be our 11th anniversary. I had fully intended on going through the day with no acknowledgement of it at all. I have decided to HONOR our anniversary, even if WE don't celebrate it. I made up my mind to take the boys out to a movie and lunch even if H chose not to go with us. I came home and asked what his plans were for tomorrow and he asked why. I told him that I wanted to take the boys to the movies and lunch since tomorrow is our anniversary. He said that would be fine with him.

I am at peace. I still don't know how I am going to deal with everything, but I know I can take it one moment at a time, one day at a time and me and my boys will come out of this state we are currently in SOON and we will be better than just okay.

Sorry for the hijack!!! If you get some time, take a peek at my thread and check out the 2x4 our friend Gardener lobbed at me.

Again, THANK YOU SERENITY!!!


BIM

[Gardener]

bim,

I rededicated myself to GOD today. The last few days, one thing after another have been coming at me exactly when I needed them. I don't believe in coincidence. It happens for a reason. Today at work, a woman whom I have worked closely with for almost 3 years sent me an e-mail because I said something to her yesterday that helped her with her evening. She e-mailed me to thank me and I walked to her desk and started talking. She ended up in my office a little while later and I shared my sitch with her. SHE was exactly what I needed today. Totally changed my perspective on things!!!

Tomorrow will be our 11th anniversary. I had fully intended on going through the day with no acknowledgement of it at all. I have decided to HONOR our anniversary, even if WE don't celebrate it. I made up my mind to take the boys out to a movie and lunch even if H chose not to go with us. I came home and asked what his plans were for tomorrow and he asked why. I told him that I wanted to take the boys to the movies and lunch since tomorrow is our anniversary. He said that would be fine with him.

I am at peace. I still don't know how I am going to deal with everything, but I know I can take it one moment at a time, one day at a time and me and my boys will come out of this state we are currently in SOON and we will be better than just okay.

Well, this is all very good.
Honor the day, if not celebrate it. That's very good. Most on these boards who choose not to celebrate sometimes - sometimes - settle/compromise by "acknowledging" it. Honor. I like that.

Hijacking my friend's post on my other friend's thread. How's that?