OH Britt...I understand you and sympathize with you in so many ways. The day my h said those dreaded words I felt as if my life was falling apart..my mind was my worst enemy. I talked to ANYONE who would listen to me but I never really heard what they were saying. You can ask for advice from anyone that will listen and respond but until YOU find it within yourself it will be hard to change. I could not grasp this concept...I was reading what people were saying but I had to believe in myself first. I had to LIVE what they were saying..the answers were within ME! You have to find something to quiet your mind...Exercise...Meditation...Journaling..SOMETHING. Set goals for yourself. You have to QUIT worrying what he thinks or what he says...What about what YOU think?? Does that not count for anything. I hope you look inside yourself and see that you are a WONDERFUL person..capable of being treated the way you deserve to be treated. If I can help in any way please let me know..I too sounded like a broken record. I even had a few bad days this week but I picked myself back up and kept on going. For my kids and for myself. This has ALOT to do with self esteem and until you start living for yourself and saying H stay out of my email and back off and taking your power back then he will continue to walk all over you. It is not over until it's OVER. The changes are for YOU..not HIM! He is lucky you are even speaking to him considering how he treats you..but he treats you like that because he CAN...
